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What is it?
I wonder.
I've had crushes on guys.
I have no standards.

However, theres always one thing I hate about myself. Ive never felt satisfied with the guy I'm with. I'm like a huge dark hole craving for perfection. Obviously, theres no Mr.Perfect in this world. This is another thing about him... now ):
I met this one guy couple months ago. I realized he was new in my neighborhood. So i gave him one of my very friendly smiles. Days later, he came up and talked to me. I found him very interesting.
 A week after that, he asked for my cell number. Eventually, he asked me out. We've been seeing each other for months. I wanted him to hold my hands, kiss me, hug me. No moves. I'm disappointed. I decided I would break the ice. I did. But guess wat? I felt so horrible cuz I thought he was gay. I began to notice his behaviors. Hes well-dressed. He has lots of different shoes. He sits with his leg crossed. I told myself  "C'mon, there are guys like that". He says he whenever he looks at me, he just wants to kiss me so freaking bad. He never does. Why? It bothers me so much. I've had boyfriends before. And they were like kittens to woolen balls, like dogs to bones whenever we were closed... Should I stop it? Yes right? I'm so confused. I dont want to hurt him. He's always been so nice to me. Hes such a sweetheart. But hes more like my gay friend. Relationships are complicated.
Ok... So i will have to talk to him about this. How will he react? Shocked? Hurt?
No I dont want any of that happens to him.
How will I keep our friendship? I want peace
God please help me, for his sake.